all this while i was a disappointment to you. what am i suppose to do to make it up for you. :(

i can't even explain why. sigh. signing off-

life is just so plain if there's no ups&downs. just live with it and mayb get over it. you'll think its impossible, but nothing is impossible right if you put your heart to it. you may get hurt, you may feel dissapointed, you may feel betrayed BUT thats not the end to your life. its actually a beginning, a beginning of changing. there's still hope if u'r still living :) you may think it hurts. Hell yea, i do agree! but whats easy in life? everything is a challenge. i may not have everything in life but still I do have people who are important to me in my life. how about think of things in a different prespective. you'll have a better life. people who don't appreciate you for you are just not main to be, its their lost for not realising, and mayb there is someone else just not that person. live life, love life. :) (omg, sound like hallmark channel now. lol ) nobody is worth losing. :)

learn to love people you don't love. ( as friends of course)

i love doodling. >

goooooood morning! & its like 5more mins to 12 -.- HAAH HELLOOO!

haven been updating for the pastt erm five days? six? omg so long. haven had the time to blog or even touch the comp due to heavy load of homeworks, tuitions and erm skul ==

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having trouble STILL with accounts. and addd maths. :( i need someone teach me laONCE AGAIN. urgh. its like a whole list of homeworkshomeworkshomeworksEVERYDAY. why no rest one? and i have a daily routine. its like my days r becoming dejavus .

HAHAHA, thats wat u get when homeworks attacks you. camwhore! :)

the class board thingy has been keeping me busy too. its like not really satisfied. and keep re-doing. like wthhhh. and with all the busyness, i'm currently sicksicksick. :(

RIAO! :)

sooo, yesterday was friday thatt makes today saturday. duh -.- had neverending school period and then after school, walked to 15 for lunch with darling, wei jin and kai zin :) headed to snowfalkes after that to waste more time. i sakai see the ufo thingy. its beeps! lol how cute :)

went for jamming and met up with jeremy and carmen :) waited there for a crazy half an hour for the person to open up the studio. stupid ppl with their excuses. and not to add so many mosquitoes bit me. bleh! finally got in, and was there for an hour or so.

headed home got ready for cell then before that hang around carmen's house a little. chichat around, played with her hamster. damn cute. camwhored with her guitar XD

seriosuly! i want a guitar! :( i need to knw how to paly it tooo. omg la. damn envy ok when i see ppl play guitar. and i can't afford one. parents don't really agree also. :( someone get me a guitar? :)))

after that michelle's dad picked us up frm carmen's house. and off for cell :) was funn, sweat alot. but not many ppl showed up today. especially yan qin. grr! daddy picked me up at around 11 and doze off aftering reaching home. one week passed edi. febuary so soon. :)

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was so tired and woke up for ntg. thought had piano lesson today but didn't come for lesson last week so didn't knw thaipussam got hols. wasted my slp! went around 19 for food and reload den headed homeee.

♥♥♥♥

:)

helllooo, imma blog bout several stuff. :) went bowling last thurs

with darling, and met up at pyramid bowling alley with cammie and michelle (: first time playing so was really sucky. but had a great time la. bought this really cute boxers. HAHAHA. damn cute ok. then went home just in time. next week again? :D

andddd, i lovelovelove fridays! cus class ends earlier and i get to spend the whole day with marcus tam, and having cell group at night even better! :)

went off to 15 for dinner? at the mamak with ying chien and frens. sorry, i oredered and couldn't finish. i felt so bad, like didn't eat even half of my indo mee and i was dead full! :S HEH

after that! went AC to waste time. at around 5 something. played pool and whats that table thingy called again ar? look down-

yes this thing. hah, was really funn :)

neways, it started rainign real heavy while we were playing. so yea, thought it would stop but it didn't, by 7 we went down and went CC to wait for carmen's car. played left4dead2 :))) HAHAHA, seriosuly i knot KNOT play games, -.- i get very tense and yea stress la. omg la. HAHA. but i tried. darling played with me. like one game then stop. played this super cute/lame spongebob game while waiting somemore. hah.

look! how cute rite? LOLOL.

then headed off to cell at the church. and andandddd cherry went! =D yesh! i miss her eventhou she just left like 3 days ago only. its like very long ok didn't see her edi. so yea, got really hyper. talkedtalkedtalked. it was awesome, and yes cell was awesome AGIAN! :))) got our camp t-shirt. very nice but kinda am big. but ok la. HAH. got home around 11 and hit the sheets :)

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woke up this morning for school :(( nobody went. and it took FOREVR i tell u for school to actually end. was really tired and went home slept the whole afternoon :)

:DDD

i think my bloginess has left. HAHAA :)

life is madness this days. :(

im just soooo.. stress out. so uncontrollable messed up with so many things on my mind every now and then. solving unimportant YET important issues..

- i have unfinishable homeworks every single horrible dayys.

- i have accounts problem

- i can't open my eyes in class

- i'm so sleepy

- having bad hair days every morning to school

- having eyebags

- i need someone to help me

- add maths is getting harder by the day

- everyone is leaving, thats so sadd

- "what time r u coming bacckkkk?!" parents -.-

- why can't i have a life?

- why so controling? unfair much?

- by the time this ends, u're gonna go white sarah :)

- saturday a school day? damn!

seriously damn stress. tomorro is FINALLY friday :) but saturday got school. due to chinese new year. which, i'm not going to be anywhere but to be at home. having NO angpoas. no money no anything. just me myself and I ,sad much? neways, i'm done. sorry for words of updates. lazy.

its tuesdayy only. one week one week seems to pass terribly slow. like mad slow only lo. neways, school is just school? normal la. homework like gallions, no time like dat. then ar i kena by teacher or pengawas for contacts or hair or socks. i knw i sound so bad. wth. but i just wonder la wats so wrong right to wear colour contacts and have fringe? pffft. its not gonna affect our studies also. BLAHHH! i'm gonna change, if not they're gonna call my parents. BOOOOHOOO!
had this larian thingy in school just just now around 4? didn't go. but instead went out with lunch with darling, charissa, wei jin and kok tong. :) at 15 mamak.then wanted to go cc buttt full. and wanted to play pool but it was gonna rain so just headed back to my house instead after thatt. its charissa's last day today. :(( damn sad. yes, i will miss you and no, i won't forget ur lamey asss :D

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oh! yes, i DID cut my hair. its shorter right? (: ain't gonna cut nemore after this. how to grow longer hair fast ar? anyone?

thats all i guess? having accounts tuition tonight. cause its freaking hard to understand. i'm just slow i guess. and school seems to make me feel damn sleepy this days. can't concentrate much. neways, ta ta :) (L)

Hello :)) I've decided to not delete my blog but to deleteALL my post. :) to start/refresh all over again. with the now happenings that i'm going through. not being able to look back at all the regrets/ unthoughful memories. sp yea! i'm starting a new blog. omg, i sound like i starting new life. wth? ;) hihihihihhihiihihhi! (L)

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so, yesterday was friday. had cell group with mich, darling, charissa, yan qin and the others :) was awesome. as usual. and got back by 11. parents wasn't that happy of me being so late home. grrr. don't knw why they like that one. so unfair. oh well.at least i had an awesome time. not to say, had a little rough moment at the end. but now its all good :D

spend my day like any normal days. had piano lesson then had delicious breakfast.lunch. then i play fb game. country story! HAHAH. looklooklook. my sister laugh at me playing this games. cause i don't usually play games and i play this kind of games instead. lololol :) was really addictive after awhile. kept me occupied for the rest of my afternoon.

got ready. then went of for church. had dinner at 15 (station 1). chitchat with parents for awhile. pne day rest away from all the school works. i could write a whole page of problems that i'm facing throught this year. like seriously. damn many. fingers not even enough to count. hmmm. i'll just keep it to myself :) HEE

(L) xo,