yo, buttskytts :)

yea, i do fear of being not good enough., all the time

I mean like, i'm still human, i understand i'm ain't prefect

but with the amount of criticisms and no support at all, it just adds.

the worst thing is, deep down you feel that your're good but others tend to not see it or they just don't want too, and being human gives an upside down vision towards it youselve. 

but i learn that, i just gotta let go already. because the past, whoever have said what they have said are already stuck in the past. we will never go back there unless we bring youselve back. and letting go would make would makem e a stronger person. more positive thoughts! :D

what more, you'll have happiness :)

happiness in life is everything!

BBQ cell night

 As what my title have shown, it was BBQ cell night for my group of cell thanks to Carmen, our leader, who organised this and not only that but also hosted it at her house.

me and marc darling wen over to her hosue right after my tuition at around 5.30. 

and nto to frget, it was also nerds night :) all thansk to Joshua  for thinkign of that idea, I definitely dress for ti that night, don't know whether you'd think i pull off the nerd look or not, but it was fun. once in awhile dressing up. 

But before I got all nerdy, I got Carmen to do my hair. cut my fridge a little thinner and also to dye my hair brown cause after usign the indain dye that my mum got for me, my fridge has become like a black hole. and hair being my precious, i just had to dye it brown back. but this time not so obvious. :)

HAHAHA, look how hideous I am with all my hair to the back that way. darling just had to snap a few ugly pictures of me while in the process of doing my hair. and hell was i afraid that peopel would start coming cause it was already 6.40. washed my hair off at 7-ish. Dried it and got myself ready for the night

nerd? no? 

MICHELLE :D so cute right her? she wanted to try center parting, but it was too much. 

and at 7, the fire still wouldn't go up. :/

But it did at the end, and the rest started coming. and they helped up on making the fire bigger and starting taking out the food for cooking. we as girls on the other hand, started camwhoring. girls are lousy helpers. I guess thats just the new generations. guys do all the work and the girls, just fool around :)

(Y)(Y) emelia, daphne and me

daphne, natalie, yi xuan, me. I was doing the snorted  face HAH!

Mich loh, and me

do we look nerdy? bwahahah

Joshua and me. he got all dress up for the night too :)

Natalie and me. she's more liek the pretty nerd, whiel i'm... not so :)

Hellllooos! :D

and of course food was served! :)

and we even got to make our mashyymellows. yums, never got to try this before. i mean like bbq a mashmellow. I've always watched them doing it on tvs but never knew it tasted that good!

Later after all the eating, we all rest ourselves inside. some got the guitars playing while others just lingered around. and we started palying Charades. and after awhile when everyone got their turned and it kept going around with the same people they all decided on playing Taboo :) definitely was fun.

the night ended well :) 

all the nerds had their fun. hee *snorts *snorts

CHARISSA CHONG! I just realised, i didnt get a picture with you that night D: this is so sad. all your fault! you were too busy with other people. PFFFTTT nvm, i still love you :)

sleepover :)

finally got the pictures for the sleepover at yan qin's house during our march holiday. almost similar to what we did last year but this year it was somewhat funnner :) 

charissa, yi jie and navin came over my house and my dad dropped us down at yan qin's house 7ish. dropped our begs down in her room and went down wondering around her big house.

took a walk afterwards since the guys wanted too. and dinner wasn't ready yet, so we took a 20mins walk aroudn the neighbourhood. camwhoring :)

yi jie and me

me and charissa

yan qin and me :)

awesome candid shot of our sexy legs :D

and us all. :')

foudn this cute thing in yan qin's room and played around it a little. sho cute.

camwhored with charissa's camera, 

love the effects of her camera. 

compare to mine :)

(Y) (Y) love this picture even though my face look roundy

and not to forget, yan qin's cute little pups cookies and cream

SOO CUTE-nya!

me and charissa got so carried away by those two that we started camwhoring with it. while the others went god knows where. haha, so cute right the pups? they were so quiet. i wonder how big would it get the next time we go visit.

Had our chit chat session, and everyone doze off at around 12.30. woke up the next at around 11, everyone got ready and we all went down to pyramid. wanted to catch a movie but instead we ended up having a light meal at Fullhouse since most of us were less in cash. got a taxi back with charissa at 3.30 and went back home. really tired two days out but seriosuly, it was worth it all. maybe next year again? i hopee :)

anyways, today! i got really surprise and shocked. you know when you get those too feeling after receiving soemthign unexpected. hehehehe, macam sugar rush. lol but only better than that. yea, couldn't explain how happy i was to receive this parcel. woke up and went down for breakfast. sat down and saw this big envelope with my name on it. i thought it was somethign bad or somethign at first cause i never receive any mail before kay. and to my surprise, i was told that i'm one of school@stuff 's prize winner for the beastly dialogue contest thingy that i wrote in last month. and my prize was a beastly book from mph :)

definitely was proud of myself, eventhough it's just something small :) sorry if i sound like sakai. HEHEHHEHEHEHEH. what a day! i'll update about yesterday's cell night some other day. cheeers! :)