went to pyramid. and for once I came back empty headed :)

Manda is hereeeeeeeeeeeee heh.

i lazy blog now. pictureeeeeess!

I used to think having you in my life was the happiest thing in my life and only you were the onyl one there for me whenever i'm so broken. looks like thsi time is your turn. and i'm deeply broken. you may not understand how i feel after the horrible tear droppings last night, i cried my lungs out and was there any difference. its not that i cried for fun, I was so upset. and this is what you're gonna say to me again, you don't get it... I guess when you siad " i understand, i wouldn't go, i'll tell them" was all a lied just to get my hopes really high for awhile. and when morning comes, its all back to where it is. why am i trying so hard for?

I give up. I give up on being so insecure. i give up on being a fool, being lied so many times and this is what I get at the end. if it was me doing this to you, I woudl have gotten worst reponds from you. its not that i wanna be unfair with you. have you thought of how unfair have you been to me lately? I dont' wanna repeat what i said over all those text. maybe you friends are more important to you, but don't i have a saying to anything too? and you can say all those rants abotu them when nobody cares about you. thats only when you come running to me. looks like I'm just always there.


Since God asked you to do all thsoe, to serve him. why not go? i never had a chance! you know why? cause each time i had the chance someone would or soemthign would eventually come into my way! and do you know how upset can I get? so means I dont' have God's calling like how you do now? will, i must be one really unlucky person. and this time I'm so upset because you're the one who spoiled all my plans this time. and you just dont' get it do you? it just doesn't upset you that i don't have the chance to go now, and I wouldn't be ableto go again next year!


and worst of all, you had to tell her about me. its so nice to complain bout your useless girlfriend to you girl friends right. and especially when you know i didnt' like it at all! it doesn't matter to you anymore that it hurts to me right? and without telling me anything, you just let me face people like this, looking like a fool, while you talk behind my back all those while!

nice job! :)

Boys over flower

Helllloooo bloggers, if there si still any who visits. :)

I'm backkkkkkk, so fast eyh? five days past so fast. pfttt.

so anyways, I had my fun, and i'll update bout my kuchign trip later on when i feel like it.

sooo, while i was there, i got caught up with Boys voer flower the korean drama :)

Never got to watch it seens i seldom follow astro. and i finally got to watch it after stayign in manda's house for the passss 5 days? but i haven finsih yet. wait till she coems over, i can't wait to see the ending.

I cried watching a few parts. Anyways, Jun Pyo (Min Ho) is Hot, the hottest.

so cuteeeeeeeeeeeee :D

but in the beginnign of the movie, i thought kim boem, who was playing Yi jeong was th cuttest among all of them. He have a smile that could melt any girls heart. and when he do his pottery, ah! so hot. how can someone look good makign pottery? heee

 

Anyways, i'm back and i'll update sooon

stayyyy tune!

pictures are up in facebook already :)

birdday

Happy Birthday darling Marcus Tammy

the love of my life, the awesomest person that ever lived

HEH! for the hundered billlion time again, HAppy birthday love,

and may all your wishes come true and and Good Luck in you spm,

I'll be praying for you :)))))))

Thanks for all the love, &memories

ps:/ can you please wake up already. its almost a day gone.

toilet

Hi Hi lovelies!

This will be my last post here, I'm heading off to kuching tomoro.

And I'll try to update a little while i'm back there. hee

so, Today went out with darling Marcus Tam to celebrate his Birthday, Which is tomoro :)

didn't get him anything yet, and i feel so bad. wait till i get back ok cause i'm broke. gah. But I did do a little paying on certian stufff. heh. so we went to have our lunch at the newly open Tbowl :) wanted to try how was the food like and since they had such adorable furnitures, The Toilet. It was hell pack, luckily we were fast a step and not to fred the price there are reasonable (:

 Darling's mee toiletbowl. so cutee! :D

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 My Sausage Burger. Yums♥

My boy is so cute kan! :) ♥♥

Then we went walking around camwhoring

Practically goofying around and doing nothing.

Watched Skyline with bie bie

Imagine one day our Earth is attacked by aliens o.o

I certianly wouldn't know what to do, and will not know whether I'll be alive or not.

Better appreciate What you have now, You'll never know what will happen next! :P

Movie ended at 3something and we went to subway for a little snack :)

YUMMMMMS! cooookies with 6inch meatballdog hee.



seriosuly had fun. and I already missed it!

sadly I can't celebrate darling's birthday tomoro with him.

but today was good wasn't it bie? ♥

I've goooooot my luagage packed and i'm set for tomoro flighttttt

AH! i'm so excited, Kolok mee here I comeee babeyhh :))

christmas mood already?!

 stupid blogger wasn't working on internet explorer, and i don't know why. I think my computer is about to kong already, i can feeel it. so anyways, i was smart enough to think of firefox :) I'll blog about my saturday and today. My saturday has become a very relaxing day due to no more tuition and piano lesson cancel for a month! so, went for mass at church and headed to Ikea for a little shopping. Ate at the foocourt, and it doesn't seem so nice anymore. everything there seems to have lost its taste in it, except the meatballs.

 After dinner, continue walking around, looking for little cousin's outfits in Ikano. I was drop dead tired already and to only walk for a few hours. I must be getting old already :)

Woke up the next day, which is today (sunday) and had my western breakfast prepared by my mummy and got myself ready and we went down to Pyramid for a little shopping .Just to get a few things that i really needed, and yes i realllly need!

 New top :)

 And new flats from cotton on.

and even a new bags since we spend quite alot there they decided to give us a free bag

got all our stuff and went back home, before we go bankrupt :)

went home and i decided to put up all my deco that i got from Ikea,

and it definitely got my christmas mood up already!

get what i mean? :)

I'm already acting like christmas is tomoro.

I can't wait for it though, it always seems that way. Everytime i can't wait for it but when the day comes it doesn't feel any special like all ordinary days. bahh. lets hope this year gets better? :)

so enough of my rantings cause I have a special someone to wish todayyy

Its kinda late, but the day isn't over yettt and I didn't wanna miss not posting it

so here you go VAL

Happy sweeeet sixteeeen!

You're finally old, like the Grandmother. HEHEHEHEH no la, I'll get serious! I've known you for four years already, imagine how time have pass so quickly. and i even missed two years with you :( and i miss those times where all of us were all in the same class,at the beginning we were close at all and I slowly got to know the retarded you :) and how you used to like bullying me because I'm so fun to be with .HAHAHA. and not to mention! I love you to many bits and pieces♥♥ You definitely are a GREAT friend Veler.Hope you had a blastttt, can't wait to see you in a week time! xoxoxox!

I Love My Boy So Much

Darling, you are the best thing that have ever happen to me and we may have our ups and downs together at times I still love you to a million thousand ♥ A day without you is like a life without air. I can never imagine not having you in my life, no one being by my side like how you are always, that is how unindependent I am and that is all your fault. hee! I am with you :) You make me the way I am, and you're the only human being that allows me to be myself whenever I'm with you. It's like you have that magic on me, isn't that something great bie? and only you have showed me how much love a person can give, never have I think someone would love me so much like you do, and I'm so grateful you do! you may sometimes think I don't know how you feel and all those, to tell you the truth I really know how you feel just sometimes I'm a little stubborn too. and I'm sorry for all those heartache that I gave you over the year, sorry for those tears that got you feeling so horrible.
Thank you for a great 1years and four months :)

I know I don't usually post much for you here, so here you go!
tonight you can sleep peacefully thanks to me :)

ello. :) curently real bored. I've changed my blog link, my nuffnang and my skin. and same goes to darling's blog. and even got active in my twitter, once again. but i still find it pretty boring. I don't know why. maybe cause i dont' go find people to talk too? and and even in formspring. hah. do folloooww me okay you peopel out there who have formsprins and twitter. its unbelievable nowadays to not have a twiter aite?


anyways, I got back from cell yesterday feeling majorly ill. I think because of the sien-ness in workign that my headache level went up sooo high until my body couldn't take it anymore. and I pushed myself on goign for cell jsut to meet up with darling. and luckily i woke up today fine but with my body aching so badly here and there. you know like those grandmother :) but i'm fine now. Had my indian breakfast and watched cycle 14 America's next top model. I don't knwo was it the encore or what, I haven watched yet. and its down to Raina and Krista. I really want Raina to win, butttt..
I just crapped a whole lot. bah!


I can't wait for christams :)
oh and do click on my adds, once its out! xo

Nobody ever listens to the good but when it comes to the bad, just once and its all over the place. same goes to when a good friend is there nobody ever sees it, but when someone who does all the bad things to you over and over again you tend to still stick to them no matter what. am i right? its weird though. why are those great friend taken granteed for? when they the ones putting you number one in their lifes, when they are the one who try so hard to put a smile on your face, when they are the one that felt your pain.

 And when it comes to asking out for yamchas or just a small hangout,that person (that helped you with thick and thin, when no one cares about your shitty complains, who was there to give you all kind of advice, to show that he/she cares) is never there to join. Never once been treated special, but yet again those friends that left you when you were down were the ones that popped in your minds first.

I guess nobody ever sees the good. us as human beings, we tend to leave out the most important people in our lives. people who did the smallest thing for you but the most meaningful one. ever been through this kind of situations? maybe you haven, but those are the friends that you should never lose :)

I don't get it why people gives out stupid excuses like "because you weren't in school, because I seldom see you online anymore" all those those stupid becausessss. especially when there is a phone to contact? have sms not occur in your minds. just say it straight and not lie, that you never thought of asking. and it really does hurt when you find out that your friends, that you thought were your friends, are going out and never even bother asking you, and when you pretend being funny asking" tak ajak la!" he/she says "haiya just come la! self invite one. just come only.  nobody will mind!" yea, nobody will mind, BECAUSE nobody even cares whether you're there or not. try going through that and see whether you can ever say that again.

I don't know why must their always be a specific gang gang thingy where you only can mix with them only without your other friends. I'm not syaing anyone in particular. just the way i see things around me. if it hit you or something or you realised something, don't perasan. its not you :)

why don't my parents have friends issues? i wonder.

Don't Dream on what you wanna be,

but live as how you are now. :)

I came across something in tumblr and it really was true about how we, will most people think. we all wanna grow up so fast, wanna be free, wanna escape from our parents guidance but have we been through what they have been through. they have to work for everything and all we do is spend every penny that they earn. And to not have time for other activities cause there are always busy worrying about you. and we on the other hand complaning about this and that. and wanting to grow up so fast. and now we wish that we were young again knowing that last time we wanted to grow into teenage life. thinking/seeing every teenagers around that time looking so cool, being able to do what the grown ups were doing. and now we realise, it isn't that easy once you've reach that stage. :)

work was hectic today. eventhough all i had to do was just sit there and type in all the numbers and letterings. it was aweful, not that easy. its hell. haha, i can't wait to get paid thou :)

I'm back. and where was I you mean? I had my flight back to Kuching and it was better then i expaeted :)) had my lunch at Empire Gallery before leaving and went down to the LCCT airport for our flight. It was only me and mummy this time,. Arrive there at dinner time and my aunt brought us down to eat our din din. it was hell awesome, we got to eat all the yummy food that i missssss so badly. :) After dinner, to my surprise mummy allowed me to head down to Sarawak Club to meet up with val them all since they were having their RC Prom Night. stayed for the evnt through out the night till it was over.

so I went back there this time for my Godmother's wedding. She's getting married and flying off to the states, California with her Angmo husband :( so it was my last time seeing her..

Afterrr the wedding (: and got to meet up with Val, Sarah, Hazel,May Yee, Cynthia and even Natasha at their Leo club meeting they had. it was awesome getting back to st.teresa. A little have change. hee. after their meeting we all carpool in May Yee's car down to Spring. the one and only pretty place to hang out. watch Megamind and it was hilarious. I can say its a must watch cartoon, but its very cliche (:

 After a hundred times strolling around Spring we all decided to depart. and that was the last i saw everyone. Got my uncel to fecth me and went hoem and took a litttle nap since i didn't get to sleep that night. Got up and got readdy for the wedding dinenr which was held at the Banquet. had bufft, and took a few photos with my godmother and her newly wed husband :)

Reach to the airport half way through dinenr and to only find otu after that when we arrive that our flight was delay to two more hours. Had to wait for my flight boredly till 11 soemthing and finally rwach back here at 1something. WHat a trip! :) Can't wait for my next trip down.

Ps: starting work tomoro. wouldn't be updating much, uless I have the time. :D