HAve you ever get yourselves caught in the "I DON'T KNOW" situation. its just so frustrating. I feel like crying my eyeballs out everytime I can't do something but i wanna do it. i wanna do it so badly but there's jus soemthing thatkeeps me from doing it. its like someone/ soemthing pulling me away, holding me me tight i can't move or think. You have NO IDEA how i feel. Its liek a really mixed up/messed up feeling where you can't control. you feel so blur out. you can't think properly. even a simple question ask, i'll jsut go stoning. thats ow bad i am. :( i feel sad being this way. all the nervous-ness, all the shy-ness, allthe thinking so much when its just saying out just a simple answer. I think I'm born handicap :(

why am i so afraid?

what have i to lose for? sigh.