I am officially the most horrible girlfriend ever.

to whoever is reading this, yes i am. nobody can deny I, not even myself. I dissapoint you, get you all mad and upset, get u so annoyed and irritated of my actions. I'm just so selfish aren't I? sigh. All i think about is my self. me me me and more me. I've never thought of how would you feel. thinking of it now makes me wanna burst out into tears. i don't deserve someone like you. Everytime in school, when you wave high or smile at me widely i don't give much responds but actually i do think you're really cute. and when you prepared food for me every recess, i DO appreciate it with all my heart. you have no idea how sad am i when u'r not around.

I just don't know how to express it out. I just don't know how to show it like how you do. I do care alot. But i just don't wanna show it out to everyone sometimes, i just feel real uncomfortable. thats jsut how i am. i just hate myself sometimes. getting upset at little things for no reason, no wonder you get irritated. even i do get irritated of myself. sigh. i'm sorry. and i do love you. you say i don't care or want you like how i used to want you, but I DO!it hurts alot seeing you say that. sigh. it just shows me how uselss i am. i'm really sorry darling. :( I just want you to be there for me when i'm down when i'm sounding like a bitch i want you to continue talking to me nicely. I may seem all alright, but inside i'm still this little girl wanting you to care. I'm deeply sorry darling.

yea,I've change. maybe its a sign. :(((((((((

ILY