I used to think having you in my life was the happiest thing in my life and only you were the onyl one there for me whenever i'm so broken. looks like thsi time is your turn. and i'm deeply broken. you may not understand how i feel after the horrible tear droppings last night, i cried my lungs out and was there any difference. its not that i cried for fun, I was so upset. and this is what you're gonna say to me again, you don't get it... I guess when you siad " i understand, i wouldn't go, i'll tell them" was all a lied just to get my hopes really high for awhile. and when morning comes, its all back to where it is. why am i trying so hard for?

I give up. I give up on being so insecure. i give up on being a fool, being lied so many times and this is what I get at the end. if it was me doing this to you, I woudl have gotten worst reponds from you. its not that i wanna be unfair with you. have you thought of how unfair have you been to me lately? I dont' wanna repeat what i said over all those text. maybe you friends are more important to you, but don't i have a saying to anything too? and you can say all those rants abotu them when nobody cares about you. thats only when you come running to me. looks like I'm just always there.


Since God asked you to do all thsoe, to serve him. why not go? i never had a chance! you know why? cause each time i had the chance someone would or soemthign would eventually come into my way! and do you know how upset can I get? so means I dont' have God's calling like how you do now? will, i must be one really unlucky person. and this time I'm so upset because you're the one who spoiled all my plans this time. and you just dont' get it do you? it just doesn't upset you that i don't have the chance to go now, and I wouldn't be ableto go again next year!


and worst of all, you had to tell her about me. its so nice to complain bout your useless girlfriend to you girl friends right. and especially when you know i didnt' like it at all! it doesn't matter to you anymore that it hurts to me right? and without telling me anything, you just let me face people like this, looking like a fool, while you talk behind my back all those while!

nice job! :)